Ende Ammavan

"Pain Demands to be Felt" for those of you who have seen the movie "The Fault in Our Stars" you know what i mean and you know in what context i say this next post

For the past few years i had a good friend called RC ..we were intimate although we rarely had sex, just once in the 3 years that i knew him. He was a silent, introverted and a totally submissive guy who looked more like a lab skeleton than a human being. As a person he was a sweetheart from the day i met him, he never shyed away from expressing his fondness for the ones he loved. He died on 7 August 2014. His death was a massive blow to me and He is the reason i started this blog. This is his story.

Disclaimer: All incidents and facts stated in this post are loosely based on somebodies life. Be nice
Yes some facts have been exagerated and some even greater facts have been softened to suit the reader.

Every night in Krishnankutty Ammavan house was living hell for RC. RC was 17 when he started living with his fathers youngest brother. RC's dad had died when he was just 10 years old and his mother worked as an office staff in a small pvt company. Krishnankutty Ammavan shortened KK was short-tempered divorced and rich and RC had no one else to rely on. Staying with KK was a way to get a better college education and RC's mother was the one who suggested it as she knew she couldnt afford to pay for Raj's education.

RC was just 14 when it first happened. KK usually visited their home when Raj was a teen and since their house was small he was usually put up in Raj's room. RC remembers the first time it happened it was blackmail Raj stole some money from KK's wallet and KK found out and threatened to tell his mother. KK offered a way out he asked RC to make him happy and in return he would not tell his mother. This led to sex ....at first RC didnt even know it was wrong.. even while standing naked in front of KK he aways thought of KK as his uncle not the evil moster that he was. His uncle told him its just like sucking a lollypop and that he should do it to make him happy. But as the days went by KK used one or the other excuse to exploit RC. RC always told me how he wished that first time had never happened.

A lot of RC's miseries have to do with his personality too he was always a shy guy, he never spoke to girls, was always silent, had very few friends and was very studious. This put him in further disadvantage as when RC grew up KK offered to pay for his education. Moving into KK's house was the biggest mistake he made in his short life. In the first few weeks RC prayed that KK had forgotten what had happened in the past and in fact he rejoiced when nothing major happed for a while. But one night KK came home drunk and shouted abuses at RC. He made RC get naked like old times RC protested and started raising his voice....With a bang KK gave a massive blow to his head his eardrums satrted ringing and he felt faint. KK tore off his clothes and made him kneel in front of him, He popped out his thick black dick and spat on RC's face calling him an ungratefull fatherless dog. No matter how badly he wanted it to stop Raj knew he was a skeleton in front of this massive bull of a man. The sheer force with which KK held Raj's hair and forced his dick in and out of Raj's mouth made Raj gag and he vomited a bit onto KK's hardened dick ...Bang came another blow and abuses calling him a useless slut just like his mother.

This went on for a few months till Raj decided to tell his mother that he didnt want to stay with KK and he made excuses that he could study better if he could be put up in the college hostel and so Raj's mother pleaded with KK to pay for his hostel, strangely KK agreed. Years went by without incident and its in his last few years in college that i met him. He was a totally submissive bottom who though that sex was always forcefull and wild and abusive. Though online dating he found out that there were lots of guys like him and by meeting them he experienced more loving and caring relationships. Although he knew that he was gay he never was very active when it came to sex he rarely used the dating site through which i met him and he forever searched for caring a loyal friend who understood his sexuality yet respected him. Sadly he found none.

He got a job after college and started living with his mom again. But as they say people who are poor always remain helpless when his mother suddenly fell sick he had to rush to KK once again for help. One afternoon he called me his voice trembling he said that he didnt want to live anymore and that he was a big shit. I asked him what happened and he told me that after his mom was discharged from the hospital KK had called him home and this time KK was along with his friend both of them beat Raj up black and blue tied him and had violent sex with him and worse still KK took a video of RC getting fucked by the other guy. RC was unaware untill one afternoon KK called him again and when RC objected he showed him the video.

That was the last i heard from Raj he changed his number and as time went by i slowly forgot him. Almost a year later i got a call from the police saying that my number was saved on Raj's phone and that they were calling up everyone on the phonelist for the investigation. They said RC had lost his job and had commited suicide. 

On Koothara Sex, Mundans and FB Wanking !!!

Foreword

I am not a Social reformer I am not a LGBT activist i have no intention to forward anyone's cause other than my own i dont intent to offend anyone but truth be told i am a sex-crazed idiot and i love expressing my self ....my blogs are more on sexuality and and less on the activism front I am this way let me be !!!
(This post contains cheap malayalam slangs and abuses translations will be provided heheh!!!!)

On Koothara Sex 

When i was a kid and just exploring my sexuality i always though that sex was romantic , flowers in bed, light music and flowing curtains ....funny part is that M2M sex in India is mostly the opposite
Gay Sex is short, with very little romance and mostly rude abusive and i cant express this enough Too Short. 
My Hungry Dick has taken me to almost every district in kerala in search of quick sex ...NSA Sex(No Strings Attached) is almost always the norm.
This piece talks about some of my friends and my sex filled experiences and mostly on Koothara Sex ( Koothara means cheap, low class, lacking any decency).

I have always loved the Thrissur Pooram because its loud, captivating and a truly sex filled event. It all happens on the night of the actual Pooram It is understood that on Pooram Day Thrissur is filled with all the Gays of Kerala. Its not just people who identify themselves as Gay but also those who just want their cock sucked coz its pooram and its such a huge celebration.

One of the hottest spots is the Stadium in Thrissur this place is filled with guys and in 2012 when i decided to attend the pooram alone without my straight friends i had sex with at least 6 different guys, but the most defining thing i learnt that night was it was nothing but Koothara Sex , cheap is not the word ...i was there around 8pm and i saw at least 80-100 guys gathered around the stadium entrances most guys huddled around in packs so it was difficult to know what was happening inside i bumped and pushed my way inside a circle only to find 3 guys on the ground kneeling and sucking off the guys standing in the circle one particular man standing  next to me was an auto driver with his trademark uniform he was getting sucked and was visibly drunk he nodded at me as i approached and said to me Itha Sherikyum Pooram (This is the real pooram) and asked me to pull my dick out ....for some reason i did what happened next was shocking he took his cocksucker by his hair the guy who was kneeling and shoved the poor mans face into my dick. i was not hard at the moment but i instantly got hard when i saw the guy was actually enjoying himself .....i was thinking am i really in kerala or Amsterdam , Obviously that was not the only quickie i had that night ...

A good friend of mine code name RN narrated this next incident to me he is this 20 something guy who works in sales and is another sex-starved idiot like me. The incident is narrated in first person account to make it interesting for you. This is what i love most about my blog i hope to tell you so many stories from so many people.

Kollam- Ernakulam Passenger Train 2014 on a hot july evening i was traveling from Kollam to Kayamkulam and the bogie i was in was mostly empty just 4 or 5 couples and some kids, then there was this cute 20 something looking hottie standing near the door, dark slim with all sorts of bands and chains on his body i didnt notice this guy at first but when i didnt see him in his seat for long i just though why not check him out .....i found the smell of cigarettes coming from the toilet so i  assumed the guy was somking. As soon as Munroe Island Station arrived i saw a middle aged man run out of the toilet towards the station ....a few seconds later this 20 something hottie steps out of the toilet and our eyes meet ...he is embarrassed coz i understood  and the toilet floor is strewn with cumm!! i start talking to his to make his loose his shyness coz he is still embarrassed, he says he is a mechanic and dropped out of school after 10 std. he is 21 and is returning from some boozing party at his friends place. after telling him i am also interested at what just happened in the toilet i said i will get down in karunagapally and he quickly agreed to get down along with me ....we start walking together after getting off the train and he says he knows this bushy place where we could have sex i quickly agree ....as we start talking i notice he is still drunk and he uses a lot of abuses in each of his sentences ....i dont mind coz its just a ONS (One Night Stand) he takes me to this bushy place by the railway tracks  a completely secluded spot and he asks me if i could suck his cock i say sure ....he pulls out is cock and says Enthada Kunne Ombada Myre (What happened u Dick Suck my cock u Slut) i oblige and after a while he is tired of the sucking and he wants me to bend so he can fuck me alarm bells are going off in my head but i for some reason let him....what happened next was not sex ....it was rape .....he fucked hard and fast and came out very fast but the worst part was even though it was hott coz he was an expert fucker it felt cheap. I returned home with a sore ass and an insulted ego.

On Mundans and FB wanking

Why are Straight guys these days making it so easy for me to shag ....
FB is full of HD clarity picture of guys posing for likes. What these guys dont realise is that they are making it easier for homosexual stalkers like me to shag.

I have always had a fascination for the Mundu ( the South Indian Dhothi- Kerala Style) people look so hot in it that i get an instant boner every time someone dressed in a mundu passes by.
I dont somehow understand how people could hate it, It looks so damn sexy.
The truth is when someone is dressed in a mundu it so easy to have sex with them....just pull up the mundu and enjoy !!!!!!

Until next Time
       

Being Gay in Kerala

The Mallu Way to G-Love

Being Gay isn't easy in India and being Mallu and Gay isn't easy at all.....Those who know this for a fact can understand what i am about to say ...so sit back and hear me out without judging.
Kerala is a beautiful place greenery and all.... and beautiful backwaters and scenic hills and fascinating people but what is most exciting about kerala is the free-thinking people it has .....just imagine of all the high-tech places in Indian the first Protest against Moral Policing by way of Kissing happened first in Kerala .....

Much of this has to do with the modernity of kerala most other states have two or more big cites a couple of small towns and hundreds of villages ...Just look at kerala its just one big continuous town ....i seriously cant to this day  figure out where thiruvalla ends and where changanassery starts its not just that the internet and all the famous gay dating sites have reached the remotest of places .....i remember chatting with a guy the other day who stays in Mananthavady

But even before all this modernity set in i would say Kerala always had that soft corner towards homosexuality....even though it was just a fling nothing serious people even so much as 25 years ago had at least one homosexual experience in their lives now i am not generalizing i am just narrating a story i heard from a older friend who narrated his story let me begin this blog with his story

Long back ...i mean really long ago in the year 1980 there was this young guy named R***% (lets call him RK) so RK was just 17 years old when he literally got kicked out of his house coz he needed to start earning for his family so RK went to the big city Calicut and started working at a grocery store of this big Trader in town now RK was working almost 8 hours away from home and hence could not afford travel home back and forth hence the trader let him stay with the other servants of this house .....Obviously you'll complain how cinematic this all sounds but trust me and hear me out ...Now the big trader had a spoilt brat of a son who loved to fuck young guys asses .....there is no better way of saying this....trust me if you would have heard the story directly from RK even you would have said Ouch !!!!

That was the first time RK says he found out that even the asshole could bleed (sickening) its understood that RK was threatened and raped several times untill the Traders son got married but his worries didnt end there RK encounters how he was asked to offer his "kuthi" every time the Traders son was bored coz either his wife was menstruating or the Brat wished for a more receptive partner .....Obviously you'll say that RK was a guy he could always run away .....but the Traders son had turned him into somewhat of a slut offering him money now and then when RK turned 20 his got a chance to join a group of his friends to go to the Gulf to look for work. He never returned to the trader or his son ..... 2 months ago the Traders son died in a tragic road accident he was 55 ...RK attended the funeral and thats how i met him ....

RK is obviously not gay in the sense of the word ...maybe he is ....maybe he's not...sometimes i think even if a guy has had a single homosexual experience in his life even if it was a good blowjob that should qualify as gay.....funny if that's the boundary who isn't gay here ......or maybe what is the boundary being so called Top always .....does that save one from being called gay ....hypocritical i say ....anyways my opinions don't matter this was RK's story and like him many young guys who trip into homosexuality through abuse not choice ....remember abuse is not just going against the will of a person it's also imposing your will on that person and coercing that person by fair means or foul to sucumb.

PS: Most stuff to follow please send me your valuable opinions and TRUST me this was NOT A FAKE STORY , i know hundreds of sites dedicated to fake erotic stories full of "KAMBI" and "KATHA"